how many days more?

Its getting nearer. But the nearer it gets, the harder it is. I CANT WAIT NO MORE. i pretty understand geok's feeling now.. i wanna go home. seriously. okay another 2 weeks.

Of course there are things in china that i cant bear to part with. MY room! the kinda freedom being in an air-con room, with a TV right infront of my bed, with an attached toilet and aunties to tidy up my room everyday although they didnt get to do it for more than 2 weeks already. Seriously i fell in love with the feeling of just happily doing whatever i want in the room, waking up at 3am and start singing to myself, watching tv like nobody's business, and leaving the room as messy as.. (cant be described).

Lotsa things that i will remember too. the funny water dispenser that will auto reboil every 30 mins or so, creating some really LOUD noise that would shocked me out of bed when i first arrived in march. Well, it no longer has that kind of effect, immuned to it. and at times its a comfort to this silent room. will remember the creative innovation geok did to our faulty shower head. although i think without it, my arm will be leaner now. and the spinach with egg dish, i am still eating it everyday, still loving it.

things i couldnt accept in the past, like the sticky corn here, i love it now. the oil soaked dishes, i am used to. i am blending in. and i think i speak with a kinda cheena accent now. oh wells.

But i gotta get out of this place. i am blending pretty in, which i am not very comfortable with. i am getting nasty, just like the nasty people here. you see, you have to be nasty inorder to survive here. in the past, when funny people approached me at xidan, i would politely say no thanks. after awhile, i started to just walk away. and now, after 4 months, i go "你可以走开吗?!”
in the past when people pushed, stepped or knocked on me, i would feel pitiful for myself and silently walk off, now i say " fcuk" right in their faces. and that happen like 3 times a day.

So i prefer staying in my room. i am a nicer girl in here. and i no longer feel bored. i can stay 3 days in my room ( except for the time i go off for gym) and feel perfectly fine and thoroughly entertained.

So i needa go home. cant wait to eat a nice pint of icecream on cathay. and first time flying by myself. cool

count down 17 days.