wah lao, i knew it.
If you bother to look through my posts, you would realise around this time of every month, i would chu4 an emo post.

yeah so there i go again ( i really cannot help it, SORRY)....

i think i have serious problem with anger management.
But first thing first, i have a question.

Is anger supposed to be shelved ( and then hope that it can dissipate itself like perfume)? Or should anger be made known via quarrels/arguments/fight-it-outs?

I practise the former.
Because all along i thought REN-ing will get me away from some resultant shits.
But recently i realised that although i do succeed in shelving anger away, they get stored on the shelf and will never go away.
So i have came to e first conclusion that anger is not like perfume, it is more like a packet of fries.

But THEN it doesnt stay in its original state. It will manifest itself into some kind of a form.

Here, i no longer feel angry with that someone or that something, but the anger gets transformed into some sort of a resentment. Like, eh hello, i hate you.

And then i realised i dont show my resentment either.....
I became a hypocrite.

And i hate hypocrites =(

And hence i came to the second conclusion that anger cannot be suppressed. It has dire effect on your relationship with yourself.

So it means that i have to quarrel and argue with people more often.
Buttttt then i have serious difficulty expressing myself even in a normal situation, much less an argument.

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I think i still can fight.
Won my sister a couple of time when i was a kid.