tiny lil black piggie.

one more week,
hurry~

happy bday shittty bro =p

s t o m a c h a c h e

Was at Millenia Walk today with proj mates when i felt a slight pain in my stomach.
There i go again, i thought.
But after awhile, i knew it wasnt the normal pain i have every once or twice a week.
It was like as if there was this needle in there piercing in and out of my stomach.
Fucking excruciating.

It cant be gastric? i had breakfast, lunch and teabreak.
Bought antacid on the way home, chewed two, and it got worse!!

and then the pain ceased totally when i got home.
what a weird stomach i have

It took everything from me not to Cry-out-loud just now

please dont let it happen again.
puuhhh-leeassee

cj and xiangyi

as of above. check it out at
http://ntu.facebook.com/album.php?aid=1540&l=001f1&id=227800397

wah lao, i knew it.
If you bother to look through my posts, you would realise around this time of every month, i would chu4 an emo post.

yeah so there i go again ( i really cannot help it, SORRY)....

i think i have serious problem with anger management.
But first thing first, i have a question.

Is anger supposed to be shelved ( and then hope that it can dissipate itself like perfume)? Or should anger be made known via quarrels/arguments/fight-it-outs?

I practise the former.
Because all along i thought REN-ing will get me away from some resultant shits.
But recently i realised that although i do succeed in shelving anger away, they get stored on the shelf and will never go away.
So i have came to e first conclusion that anger is not like perfume, it is more like a packet of fries.

But THEN it doesnt stay in its original state. It will manifest itself into some kind of a form.

Here, i no longer feel angry with that someone or that something, but the anger gets transformed into some sort of a resentment. Like, eh hello, i hate you.

And then i realised i dont show my resentment either.....
I became a hypocrite.

And i hate hypocrites =(

And hence i came to the second conclusion that anger cannot be suppressed. It has dire effect on your relationship with yourself.

So it means that i have to quarrel and argue with people more often.
Buttttt then i have serious difficulty expressing myself even in a normal situation, much less an argument.

...
..
.

I think i still can fight.
Won my sister a couple of time when i was a kid.

you fat arse

i am increasingly getting annoyed with people who

-do nowt and still act like you know everything when everything you say is booshit. Please, dont have to threaten me with the prof , i have a thousand more things against you. So shut your fat arse.

hmm actually thats all. I am not going to be kind to this kind of people anymore. I will not even ACT kind, because its bad, its lying.

You try to kaobei me again, i will blow my top. I swear.

rice table, Hog's Breath

and i said i want to be on a diet....
2 heavy meals in 2 days...
owells.

Rice table

celebrated michelle chew's bday last nite at rice table. it was great catching up with andy, jet and yulin. Alas jean couldnt make it here, or it would be more fun.

a party with hats! pretty mitch~

the guys

yulin

yummy indo food. a tad too spicy for me thou..

best of the day. choc icecream cake! thanks mitch!

Hog's breath with xiwen, ada and sy today. long long time since the 4 of us met up. =)

its cool to go out with xw. because can wear NICENICE to
complement her. lols

hog's Breath cafe at vivo.

the four of us~

my atlantic salmon set. uber big portion. and theres
this really nice crackers hidden under the salmon. It was a great
complement for the salmon and the cheesy sauce on top. yumm yumm

ready to devour the food. I doubted i could finish them, but i
seriously underestimated my appetite.

xiwen's. it huge portion.

shiyin's

i FINISHED everysingleshit infront of me. i am a hog.

shiyin and i

aha. shiyin looked so delighted here. and i wore high heels still not comparable to the 2 tallies.
urge.

time for diet. and i mean it this time, for one week. hee. =X

wan chai Classic.

people i am getting fat. fuck. I will go on a strict diet after this week. i promise
But before this lemme talk about this hongkong cafe at IMM that flown me back to hk. =)

The food there is pretty comparable to what i had in hk.

lotsa people.

As usual, i had my fav hawker food, wanton mee. The mee and soup are similar to
that of Hk's. But the wanton has too much meat. nice thou. i love!

Pork floss fried beancurd.

the outer layer is deep fried crispyness, and the inside is beancurd soft.
like duh.

Pork Rib baked rice. Its pineapple rice in there. I found it
really nice. the cheesy/pineapple/tomato/porkrib burst of flavours was
HEAVENLY.

Time for dessert! Almond and sesame paste.

so stunned.

this cafe is really nice... and its near NTU.. go go go tryy!!

-i swear i will stop eating/binging when monday comes-

Fishing anyone?

!!i dont feel like going to schoooool

genting~

and i shall talk about my genting trip.
What was i doing this time last week? hmm
Comtemplating whether to take the spaceshot at the theme park?
and, in the end, we didnt. (cj chickened out, not me, i swear)

This is the 4th trip up there: the first 2 when i was a kiddo, and the only thing i could remember is how frustrated i got when the candyfloss around me (still) couldnt be eaten.

The 3rd trip was before uni, with parents and their friends. hmm, no fun.

Now then i know genting can be fun when 1) you are not a kiddo that just want to eat clouds, 2) you are not with your parents and 3) you are not with your parents, their friends, and made to accompany their friends' kids who just want to eat cloud.

So, this time i had fun, really =)

--

the trip up and down were good. the seats were really big and spacious, like this

super vip bus.

us sitting comfortably in our coach. hahaha.

( i am like super amused with myself)

Was reading off from a certain forum, and the girls were yakking away at how uber bad the food are, how small the hotel rooms are, and stuffs. Conversely, i found the rooms good.
Too spoilt, these people.

This is the spacious corridor of firstworld hotel tower 2.

Uhh i blocked out a big part of the mirror reflection of the room =X
But seriously its really comfy.

another angle. =)

it was alot of walking the first day, exploring around. Went into casino toos, for the very first time in my life. ahas. a noisy marketplace i would describe it to be. not my cuppa tea.

watched The Brave One on genting...

Complemented with a freaking long bag of popcorn. love

the second day was spent at the theme park, plus a buffet and another movie

i didnt play the spaceshot =(

Uncle steve told me,

"be nice to yourself", and " to live it one day at a time the best you can and it will all work out fine".

if theres one person who knows about life, he should be the one i guess.
so yeah, i shall heed.

:. happier stuffs.:

i had 3 buffets in just a week's time. ( and i am not guilty, somehow, coolness)

cafe brio's at grand copthorne water front. =)

succulent sakae and maguro sashimi. And PRAWN. I lovelovelove fresh and sweet sashimi. Dont really like raw oyster thou. slurps.

The main dishes were mexican food. too weird and unfamiliar to my taste bud. so i stuck to more prawns. yummy

and whats the best part of a buffet. yups, desserts =) sweet and comforting sinfulness. I always make sure i have 1/2 a stomach especially left for them.

close-ups! yummy yummy. Theres even Yum paste can. all damn heavy.

ice cream and choc fondue. the choc fondue is good. rich and bitter-sweet. mmmm~

us! xiwen and I finally fulfill our cravings for unlimited flow of food. Plus geok and xiaohui.
Photo taken by Mr Bagus.

2Nd buffet at Hotel Resort Genting: It was a Chinese /western/Indian/Malay Buffet. not that bad but i prefer prawns and sushimi.

the restaurant at resort genting

we were eating mostly the indian food. the spices are niceee, complemented by crunchy crackers.

yummy wedges

uber sweet green bean soup with durian! =) =)

yoghurt with fruits

another one was the buffet breakfast but havent uploaded the pics.
Rice table this saturday at mitch's 21st bday. loooking forward =)

a lost individual

what do i want in life?
The question has been hovering above my head for a long long time..
and i have yet to find the answer.

Isnt it sad?

I have been with myself for a good 21 years
and yet, deep down, i seriously have no idea who i really am.

Like seriously,
if cj ceased to exist, my life would be fucked.
Because besides studying ( which i truly hate),
Theres really nothing much except him.

Which again, spells sadness.
I nv agreed nor understood why some people can revolve their lives solely around their bf/gf
But now i think i am guilty of being one.

Pathetic life huh.

I need to find a new direction in life.
because i am in the wrong one now
or rather, i am not even anywhere.

and ya, why can't i just stop thinking.